freakin 19

I'm freakin 19 and still living.

Praise to Allah cause now I'm older and really hope that I can make decisions.

I admit that I've been really IMMATURE for the past 19 years of my life.

Hopefully now I can repent from all the sins and be a grown person.

Hopefully I can manage myself and gain the fact that next year I'm 20.

No more "teen" in my age.

The old feel is just making us feel stupid for what you've done over the years.

Now I will open my eyes and make a hell better life than before.

Hope YOU will guide me.

Help me please.

All praises to YOU.